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The COMPOSER
Rewire your DNA, Embody your Leadership, and Create your Life
Imagine feeling safe to be with it ALL…
To create a life that feels like you want it to feel, a life you desire… In many ways you may have already created a life you desire, yet you can feel something is missing... There is more ease, freedom, joy, connection, presence, and pleasure for you to experience...
Imagine feeling able to suss out the sneaky and subtle ways that your nervous system reaches for: People pleasing, needing to be "right," overthinking, obsessing, ruminating, overdoing, perfectionism and control. This piece is KEY, you may not even realize there is a subtle energetic contraction that causes you to very sneakily and unconsciously slip into these behaviors without even realizing it...
Sweet one, your nervous system simply wants to keep you safe, and your ego will inhibit you from seeing it because your ego and your nervous system are in cahoots to keep you safe... While you may think these subtle ways don't matter they are actually robbing you from living life with an open heart, presence, joy, and pleasure while disconnecting from your TRUTH...
The Composer is here to guide you
The Composer will guide you to have a nervous system that feels safe to see it ALL, to process it, release it, and expand in every area of your life: Love, money, abundance, connection, freedom, career, family, friendships, spiritually, and to just BE YOU... This is going to completely create a new way of BEING for you that will thread into the rest of your life and set you FREE...
It will allow you to fall in love with the journey and to dance with ease through every moment, even and especially, the most painful ones because no matter where you are on your journey, hard and painful moments are inevitable...
I know most people don’t talk about the painful moments at the top of a program's page, but the truth is life will always come with difficulty and pain, and when you know how to BE with it, metabolize, and alchemize it, without avoiding, bypassing, or justifying life becomes so much more joyful, connected, easeful, and pleasure-filled, and you feel free. We have been conditioned to numb our emotions. This comes at the expense of numbing our lives, which leads to disconnected and disembodied lives. This way of being may be so normalized for you that you may not even know what I mean…
Once The Composer sets you free you will feel the most effervescent gratitude fill ever cell of your being… One of the most common things my clients say to me is "I cannot believe I used to live any other way. Once I saw it I couldn't unsee it, and I am just so grateful to be able to feel the truth."
The Yarrow Kae Way guides you so deeply home to you that all you feel is truth, you simply have to feel safe enough to trust yourself…
let’s look at A FEW EXAMPLES
You jump out of bed in the morning, rush to get ready, rush to work, rush through your day, head to the gym and force your way through a workout only to return home to have a glass of wine, binge watch TV and scroll on your phone at the same time. You may do a guided meditation at the end of your night and tell yourself that tomorrow you will forgo the wine and the TV, but then do it all over again anyway.
OR…You are an entrepreneur who jumps out of bed, manically writes out your manifestation affirmations while your heart is racing, does a guided meditation from one of your three mentors (cause one of them is gonna get you to that million dollar year) where your brain won’t settle and your ruminating overtakes you, but you convince yourself you are “doing the energetic work to be your elevated self” then you frantically post on EVERY single social media app all day, get frustrated that you don’t get the engagement you want and then avoid having sex with your partner at the end of the day because you have a migraine, but you convince yourself that you are tapped into the divine feminine and are operating from ease.
You are on the dating apps, trying to find your “partner” yet everytime you are messaging with someone you get so activated by their inability to lead that you project all over them, unmatch with them and spend the night blaming men for not knowing how to lead when secretly your intimacy wounds are so activated that if a man did show up and see you you wouldn’t even know how to receive it. But, you know, F men and their inability to show up.
OR… You tell yourself you want to get married and have kids yet you are so avoidant around commitment that you keep love bombing women and then ghosting them when your attachment wounds get triggered because underneath the bravado you are deeply terrified of not seeming like you have it all together.
Your nervous system is a sneaky B and will do ANYTHING to keep you exactly where you are
If you have grown, expanded, shifted, and created new ways of being it will only allow you to go so far before it blocks you and convinces you to stay where you are because it won’t feel safe to expand into the true fullness of who you are…
There will still be sneaky attachment wounds, victim narratives, ways you’ve gotten your needs met (hello, needing to be sick to be loved, playing the martyr, being overwhelmed, seeking saving from your partner or in dating, avoiding intimacy by claiming you are "too tired”)...
That is… UNLESS you fully rewire your DNA and embody internal safety to BE in the unknown at a nervous system level. Most people do not realize the levels of internal freedom, ease, and pleasure that exists until you do this level of internal work.
It takes courage to dive this deep because it will trigger your ego and the ways your nervous system has created safety. In fact, the more inner work you’ve done the more triggering it will be for your ego, which is exactly why THIS is for you…
CHOOSE A PRICING OPTION
In The Composer, utilizing The Yarrow Kae Way, we will guide you to rewire your DNA, embody your leadership, create your life, and feel safe to just BE and receive…
HOW YOU WILL TRULY JUST BE
Meditate, rest, and masturbate or have sex in the middle of the day without guilt, pressure or “shoulds” weighing on you.
Enjoy your food and nourish your body without guilt and in ways that feel good for you.
Love and honor yourself in every moment (no more binge eating, binging TV, leaking your energy, avoiding intimacy with your partner, projecting, making excuses, or blaming).
Get honest about YOUR role in the creation of your life without avoiding shame or feeling like it is a burden (THIS is the most freeing thing in the world).
Release the obsessing, ruminating, overthinking, and needing to know.
Feel safe to BE in the unknown without trying to control the outcome, the unknown is where all magic is created.
Show up as YOU in your life without the defenses, maladaptive coping mechanisms, or protective armor.
Release the subtle control and perfectionism that dictates your life.
THE COMPOSER IS FOR YOU IF YOU
Are a high level leader who desires full internal freedom, no more overthinking, perfectionism, control, rigidity, questioning yourself, seeking validation, seeking saving in money or a relationship, etc.
Believe that you need to work on just your relationship, business, career, attachment wound, ability to manifest, or health and yet you constantly feel dissatisfied and disconnected, even if just on a subtle level, and are unable to hold yourself to your own divinity and highest self.
Struggles to have intimacy with yourself, your partner, your kids or your family, always avoiding eye contact, deep conversations, and heart connection because it feels triggering so you keep avoiding and numbing…yet, you deeply desire that connection
Manifests with ease, yet you have no libido, lack vitality, joy, play, and the ability to settle in your body and just BE without needing to do
Shows up “in your power” yet feels terrified to receive support and allow your true heart to be felt
Knows in your whole BEING that there is more, more connection, intimacy, freedom, joy, vitality, and love available, but cannot figure out how to access it, even though you have done ALL the things…
You may not even realize there is another way of being than the one you have been conditioned to be.
Again, even if you have done some deconditioning and nervous system healing, with the Yarrow Kae Way, you just go deeper and truly shift at a cellular level. I grew up off the grid and do not have the same level of societal conditioning as other people. There are so many things that you are doing every day that society has conditioned you to believe are normal, but aren't, and one of my biggest superpowers is being able to see those things and help you unravel them and create the nervous system safety to release them because they were never normalized for me.
I am operating at a different energetic frequency than most people, and in The Composer we guide you to feel safe to operate at that frequency too... I have gone through the fire over and over again to create the Yarrow Kae Way, a healing method that sets you free, so you don’t have to.
You may think you are pretty good, and yet there are still sneaky ways you are in resistance to falling in love with your journey and feeling safe to be in the unknown… Let me tell you why, your nervous system is very adept at doing its job and you will not be able to see these blind spots on your own, especially when the ways you are relating are normalized and you are validated for your fears, resistances, and complaints…
We live in a traumatized and addicted world, which means that your nervous system is wired for survival.
So, no matter how much inner work you have done...
Therapy, breathwork, plant medicine, manifestation courses, yoga, spiritual work, divine feminine embodiment, shadow work, coaching, energetics, rituals, akashic records, astrology readings, human design, etc.. your nervous system is coded with trauma and protective patterns designed to keep you safe. These patterns may be so subtle and sneaky that you do not even realize they are there. I didn’t. And my clients (who are often other coaches, therapists, healers and mentors) don’t either because, as I said, these ways are normalized in society…
Control, perfectionism, performative ways of living, overworking, busyness, shoulding on yourself, needing things to be a certain way to feel okay, knowing all the things, but not embodying all the things, bypassing emotion, chaos, gossip, shaming your spiritual lessons, ego based spirituality and manifestation, obsessing, ruminating, judging, comparing, blaming others or the world, projecting, defending, denying, avoiding, numbing with any addictive behavior, binging TV, scrolling social media, taking things personally, ghosting, expecting, anxiety, depression, SAD, migraines, drinking often, casual sex, scarcity around money, time, and love, need I go on…
You may read this list and think, Yarrow, everyone lives this way. I know, that is the problem. And, even if you have done a lot of inner work, in Yarrow Kae Academy, we do it differently. You will rewire your DNA and shift at a cellular level so that you are internally FREE. I know, people always say that, but in the Yarrow Kae world, it is absolutely true. You simply must feel safe enough and be courageous enough to GO there. And by GO there I mean, allow your ego to soften so you can get honest about the ways your protective patterns are STILL controlling your life and sucking the joy from it.
Hello Dear One, I’m Yarrow
As a mentor, spiritual guide, healer, and clinically trained therapist I guide you home to you…
Grounded in my academic foundation with a Master’s in counseling and depth psychology and a deep understanding of spirituality, metaphysics, and the human heart, I bridge ancient wisdom with science, somatic practices with attunement, and nervous system healing with energetic mastery. My mastery in these areas allows you to shift at a cellular and DNA level. You embody a whole new way of being, one where you are absolutely free, lit up, and able to just BE in your life.
At age 19, I downloaded enlightenment on the dance floor of a rave (experiencing enlightenment and embodying enlightenment are very different states of being). I spent over 20 years on a spiritual journey where I became a yoga and meditation teacher, clinically trained therapist, reiki healer, and nervous system master. This led to my creating The Yarrow Kae Way, a unique blend of somatics, psychology, spirituality, and energetics, designed to set you FREE. My trial and error is YOUR gold. I have been through it all so you don’t have to.
I do things differently. When you enter my world it will all click, your body will settle as relief sighs from your lips, and you’ll say “this is what was missing.” And you’ll be set free.
My vision is–you feeling safe to move out of scarcity, fear, disconnection, and contraction and into connection, abundance, joy, and expansion. This is The Yarrow Kae Way.
I would love to guide you to be the composer of your life, so you feel safe to FEEL how you want to feel and to fall in love with your journey along the way.
What you receive when you join The Composer 8 week program:
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2 hour weekly LIVE calls with Yarrow and Kelly--these are KEY for being seen, held, and called out on the sneaky ways your nervous system is keeping you stuck and unable to be The Composer of a life that FEELS like you want it to
(Weekly calls at 4:30PM PST on Thursdays. Start date 10/23)
4 days of Voice-noting support in Telegram with Yarrow and Kelly--crucial for in between support and accountability. We ALL need to be held as we create the nervous system safety to embody a new way of BEING.
THE COMPOSER PROGRAM:
Daily meditation, chanting, and somatic practices, so you are able to shift at a nervous system level and move from contraction into expansion AND embody YOUR magnetic energetic vibration
Nervous system rewiring at a cellular level so you upgrade your DNA. The Yarrow Kae Way is a system that rewires your nervous system so it feels like it is dripping in GOLD...
How do we do this?
Through Yarrow's unique method of psychology, somatics, spirituality, and energetics.
During The Composer your nervous system will attune to a whole new way of BEING , so you feel safe to be seen, receive, EXPAND, and just BE...
It is like magic, but really it is so simple, it is through attuning to a nervous system that is wired this way (really 2 nervous systems--Yarrow and Kelly) and creating the safety to begin taking the action steps to become the next level version of you without your sweet and sneaky nervous system holding you back through contracting and grasping onto safety...
We guide you to move from contraction to expansion...
Which shifts your energetic vibration and creates a new symphony in your life
The Composer will guide you to embody being the leader in your life and to create a life that FEELS like you want it to.
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Pre-work:
DNA
Epigenetics
Addicted and traumatized society
Societal conditioning and beliefs
Energy is everything
The Art and Science of Manifestation - you are the creator of your life
Your relationship with the universe
Presence is the pathway to pleasure
True non-attachment--embodying it from your heart
Vulnerability around receiving
Wounded self, highest self, and holding yourself and others in their divinity
Module 1: The FoundationsNervous system
Contraction vs. Expansion
Internal Safety
Addictions and maladaptive coping mechanism
Trauma and somatics
Triggers
Attachment
Inner child
Module 2: The Rewiring to Become YouShame
Vulnerability
Intimacy
Fear of being seen
Societal conditioning
Protective parts
Attachment
Your magnetic vibration
What that means and looks like to you
Module 3: Emotions Create Your VibrationEnergetics, energetic vibration, and what it means
The web of defenses we have that protect us against our emotions
Coming from defenses vs. your heart
Manifestation and how we manifest
Emotions are the language of the universe
How you relate to your emotions is how you create your life
Feeling vs. bypassing vs. attachment
The ways we lie to ourselves to avoid our emotions
Creation vs destruction
Consciously creating through accessing your emotions
Alchemizing your pain into gold - your greatest creation
Module 4: The Unconscious, Shadow, and Subtle EnergyUnconscious vs conscious
Intention, agenda, and aligned actions vs frenetic energy
Lying to yourself and denial - lying to yourself is the unconscious
What is subtle energy and how does it show up in our lives
Attachment
Needs vs desires
Evolution of needs - as you heal, evolve, and rewire, your needs shift
Have to let them - back to our best friend of attachment
Shadow and the GOLD
How this relates to our attachment relationships
Unconscious ways we sacrifice ourselves to belong
Ego and its sneaky ways
Module 5: Embodying LeadershipSelf-leadership
True personal power
Power vs force
Unmet inner child needs and how they cloud our leadership
Justifications, excuses, and denial
Truth vs perceived truth - get honest yourself
The strongest vibration in the world is authenticity, which is truth
Authenticity vs attachment
The strongest energy leads
Your auric field and your radiant body
People pick up on the unconscious beliefs you have about yourself in their empathic receptors of their brains and that is how they treat you
Personal responsibility vs carrying the weight of the world as a burden
Magnetism
Ego and its agenda - the ways it impedes your leadership
Heart-lead leadership
Discipline as a sacred practice
Divine masculine structure and aligned action
Divine feminine leadership
Module 6: Relationships and LeadershipMagnetism in relationship
Attachment vs connection
Communication and energy
Subtle energy creates your life
Expectations in relationships
Trauma responses and relationships
Needs vs desires
Divine feminine and masculine
Holding yourself and others to their divinity
Module 7: Intuition, Clarity, and VisionIntuition - what is it and how to listen to it
Intuition vs ego / trauma / fantasy
Creating and getting clear on your vision
Falling in love with the journey and knowing that it is all perfect even when it’s messy
Magic in the mundane
Aligned action and vision
Holding your personal power in the unknown
All magic is created in the unknown
Trusting the process
Holding your vision even when it seems like it isn’t working
Highest self
Module 8: Surrender and ReceiveControl and its insidious ways
Mind vs brain
Rigidity and lack of acceptance
Ancestral trauma
To just be - what does it mean
Lack of safety to just be
What it means to let go
Presence is the pathway to pleasure
What it means to surrender and to be non-attached
Resistance and how the brain comes up with protective devices to make us feel like it isn’t safe to let go
Explain true non-attachment
The vulnerability around receiving and creating the safety to allow yourself to be vulnerable enough to receive
Divine feminine
Highest self
Welcome home, you just found the place that will unlock it.
Let me be real, you are going to tell yourself you don’t need this because you have done ALL the healing, manifestation, therapy, and personal development things, and yet, I promise you there are deeper layers of unprocessed trauma coded into your nervous system that are keeping you from fully feeling free, subtle ways you are going into victimhood to life, resisting your journey and your process, banging your head against the wall and “blaming” yourself and your energy or the world for things not happening “yet” because you cannot see the unconscious ways you are relating to the world and resisting your lessons.
Your ego, nervous system, protectors, addictive behaviors, and attachment wounding are protecting these unconscious ways of being because it feels TERRIFYING to GO there, to release the attachment to these ways… This is why The Composer is for you because I will help you create the nervous system safety to suss out and alchemize the sneaky ways you are contracting and holding back, so you are able to access full internal freedom and just BE in your life without busying, needing to do, controlling, trying to figure it out, numbing, disassociating, or shutting down, so you feel safe to come ALIVE, feel juicy, and easefully dance with your journey without fear of the unknown.
All magic is created in the unknown and when you feel safe to stand in the center of it without shrinking you are the most powerful person in the world. Sweet one, you are so unbelievably powerful, and it is only when you feel safe to allow your heart to be felt, your body to calm, and your breath to be easy that you will feel safe to BE all of you and BE with it all, and this is the true path to freedom.